Starting Where We Are

I don’t know.

I have tried to write this first blog post about ten times now and each time end up blank or with the beginnings of a thesis rather than a nice, neat, succinct sounding blog post.

“I can do better!”, “This doesn’t represent me!”, “It’s so much more complex than this!” are just some of the criticisms that have been tormenting me.

So, I stopped. I turned inward, and while I would love to tell you that it led to some uncanny insight or a moment of deep clarity, it most definitely did not. It led me to the mess that is my mind of a Sunday night during a cold and relentlessly rainy February.

I am dealing with a confused mess, friends - precisely the kind of confused mess I would encourage a client to bring without judgment, and one I am profoundly disinclined to share myself. I wanted something shiny, smart, and engaging, not this……whatever this is.

~Insert GIF of someone holding a smelly nappy at arm’s length while holding their nose~

But you know what it is? It’s a start, it's an opening, a hello. However awkward it may be. I will survive it, and so, I hope, will you.

Start with the ground you know,

the pale ground beneath your feet,

your own way to begin the conversation.

Start with your own question,

give up on other people’s questions,

don’t let them smother something simple.

David Whyte ~ Start Close In

For me, that lands like this “If I can’t risk doing what I would ask of you, what are we even doing here?”

That really is my question, and I’m happy with it. Well, happy enough.